Just the way I am
Reflection from Awakening #74
Being a former athlete and transfer student from Nicholls, I was worried I would not be able to find a group of people or place where I would fit right in. It was scary. I was terrified. I had always heard how amazing Awakening was and always had the desire to go, but I never had the chance to make it because I always had something softball related on the weekend of Awakening.
The week before Cowboy Awakening 74 school was crazy and taking a huge toll on me. I knew I needed awakening badly, but I didn’t know just how beautiful it was going to be.
The most fulfilling part of this weekend was the amount of love I received, a love so overwhelmingly beautiful. I can’t even begin to explain the peace and the calming feeling that overflowed into me from inside of my heart while sitting in adoration. It was the first time I truly believed God sees me, knows me, and loves me just the way that I am. I’ve spent so much of my life trying to live up to other people’s standards, I never truly believed in my heart I am loved the way I am.
This weekend also taught me I am not alone, and a lot of people struggle with some of the same things I struggle with. Standing in the Newman center on Sunday and looking around the room was when I finally understood why God wanted me to wait until my junior year of college to make my Awakening at McNeese.
Thank you, Cowboy Catholics, for always making me feel welcomed and for loving me just the way I am.
Marcella Gossen, Cowboy Catholic Junior